From about the ages of 14-22, I was completely jaded with life. I thought I was born pessimistic. In my mind, that was who I was and I thought people who were positive and optimistic were either naive or fake.
In my mind, optimistic people were vapid and didn't read the news. They didn't know about all of the horrible things that were happening in the world. War, poverty, orphaned kids, animal abuse, genocide, you name it.
I, on the other hand, felt it all. And I felt the burden of it all. I knew I wanted to be the next Oskar Schindler from Shindler's List. If you don't know, Oskar Schindler helped save 1,200 Jews from extermination in a concentration camp during WWII.
When I was 22, my life began to turn around. I can go into that some more one day. But for now, I'll just say that I was no longer depressed. Life wasn't perfect, but it was getting better.
From 22 on (I can't believe I'm saying this), but I became an optimist. And life got so much better. Anyone who is positive will tell you, having hope and looking on the bright side of things takes work.
But the work is well worth it.
Your words are powerful and what you believe about yourself is powerful too. Believe that you are more than the lies that you tell yourself.
If you start making these changes, you might find that life doesn't feel as hard as it did before.
Love to you on this journey,
speak. <3